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beyondwonderlandd:


so im not posting this to get notes or likes or whatever, im posting it because this is the only way i can get things off my chest. as you can tell by the date, this was in July 25, 2012. the relationship ended in September 14. well, it was never actually a ”break up”, he cheated, he blocked me on facebok so that i wouldnt find out. when i found out, i didnt say anything. i didnt try to talk to him. i completely shut down, at that moment. its January 14 now, there hasnt been a day where i dont think about him. i miss him so so much, it kills me. we had a long distance relationship. he lives in Arizona, i live in California. but we were able to make it work, at times it got really hard, which caused us to break up alot. but somehow, we always ended up back together. im not going to lie, he made me really happy. the first time he asked me out, was May 10. the day before my birthday, it was so asdfghjkl; lame i know, but i thought it was cute. during the relationship, we had our ups and downs, we were both stubborn and never wanted to say we were wrong. but a simple ”i love you” was able to fix everything, i know that isnt good, but i could never stay mad at him. he was like a bestfriend to me. he was the one to make me smile with a simple ”babe &lt;3” text or when he would leave me millions of voice mails during the night so that i would be able to wake up to his voice, stuff like that is what made me fall hard for him. but things changed.. i guess. i dont understand how someone can just wake up one day and not have anymore feelings for someone, our conversations still play back in my head, our memories are like razor blades. he trys talking to me now, but i just push him away, it hurts pushing him. i want him, i still love him and have the same feelings for him, but i know that i cant put myself through that anymore. it sucks having feelings man ~

beyondwonderlandd:

so im not posting this to get notes or likes or whatever, im posting it because this is the only way i can get things off my chest. as you can tell by the date, this was in July 25, 2012. the relationship ended in September 14. well, it was never actually a ”break up”, he cheated, he blocked me on facebok so that i wouldnt find out. when i found out, i didnt say anything. i didnt try to talk to him. i completely shut down, at that moment. its January 14 now, there hasnt been a day where i dont think about him. i miss him so so much, it kills me. we had a long distance relationship. he lives in Arizona, i live in California. but we were able to make it work, at times it got really hard, which caused us to break up alot. but somehow, we always ended up back together. im not going to lie, he made me really happy. the first time he asked me out, was May 10. the day before my birthday, it was so asdfghjkl; lame i know, but i thought it was cute. during the relationship, we had our ups and downs, we were both stubborn and never wanted to say we were wrong. but a simple ”i love you” was able to fix everything, i know that isnt good, but i could never stay mad at him. he was like a bestfriend to me. he was the one to make me smile with a simple ”babe <3” text or when he would leave me millions of voice mails during the night so that i would be able to wake up to his voice, stuff like that is what made me fall hard for him. but things changed.. i guess. i dont understand how someone can just wake up one day and not have anymore feelings for someone, our conversations still play back in my head, our memories are like razor blades. he trys talking to me now, but i just push him away, it hurts pushing him. i want him, i still love him and have the same feelings for him, but i know that i cant put myself through that anymore. it sucks having feelings man ~

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